in the end

in the end,
that’s all you are to me,
simply an end,
standing in the long line of successive endings

she tried to give her heart to me,
the past got in the way,
the future got in the way,
her past lovers got in the way,
thoughts of my x lovers got in the way,
her friends got in the way

the dealer was dealing from the bottom of the deck

in this i was true to myself,
acceptance came long before understanding,
understanding never comes

a beauty, never to be possessed,
the experience of her was all that i desired

these words of affection ground me,
in her absence she is still a muse

like a one eyed jackal tattooed on my neck,
she will remain with me as a loving memory

in the end,
that’s all she was to me,
an ending