I know what Rose wants from me

There is a choice,
A choice,
between
Suffering
Pain
and Life

I cannot avoid pain by avoiding life

Commit myself, Fade away, Kill myself,
What then?

I have a choice?
It is only what I can bear,
The suffering that is unjust,
Pain inflicted for no reason,
To achieve what ends,
It is psychosis,
All this sadness,
All this sorrow,
for What?

and, and, and

Realizing that I have caused you disappointment,
Not listing the ways, not naming names,
What good can come of this,
I am an imperfect man, too

But

Rose, I will not live within this sorrow,
I will not,
It is not in my character,
To retreat, avoid,
Be subjugated

I know my own suffering

But

I choose ecstasy,

I choose life