fear

R. Mutt, Calder, Jane E. and Rose all support my efforts to be original. Foxy M does too.

Fear is like a cancer eating away at your insides.
It will infest your mind and eventually the body
will succumb to its ravenous hunger,
consuming all that you are, were and will ever be.

She TXT me four days after essentially we ended it, “been thinking of you today, miss you.”
Sent a TXT back, “honestly, don’t know what to say to you, miss you too, but…”

Did know what to say, “get your shit together, stop playing little girl games with yourself. All this mental fucking masturbation is driving me insane.”

Run, hide, that’s all you know how to do,
Afraid, scared of everything, now I know,
You want to be fearless and that scares you.

Embrace fear. Seize it, live with it, love it,
like you would love the swollen growth of a bulging protuberance,
swallowing whole, your desire for affection.
Love the plague that scars your being.
Love the horrific terror that infiltrates every thought in your way of thinking.
Then you are fearless.

Move into the darkness, away from the noise, chaos, drama.
Experience a transformation, a metamorphous,
like a lightening rod struck by 100,000,000 volts.
A change will occur when it is silent.